Friday, January 20, 2006

Good Morning... Now Go F*ck Yourself.


Mood: Barely conscious
Song: Crutch - Matchbox Twenty
Units of Caffeine: 1, so far
Days Until Vacation: 99

This is how I feel: old; unattractive; I don't care; and there's not nearly enough coffee in the world to keep me afloat!

Not too long ago, I made the decision to decline a great opportunity to assistant direct a show at a local rep theatre. For a while now, I have been thinking about that decision and wondering if I had made the right choice - or if I had really shot myself in the ass. Well, last night I came to the firm realization that I had chosen wisely. For the past few days, I have been the lighting crew for a local production of Romeo & Juliet. Here is what my daily schedule looks like:

5:00 a.m. - Wake up
5:30 a.m. - Get up
5:31 a.m. - Commence morning routine: shower, brush teeth, drink coffee, rinse, repeat...
7:25 a.m. - Arrive at work
5:00 p.m. - Leave work
5:30 p.m. - Get home with just enough time to grab a quick bite and change
6:00 p.m. - Leave for the theatre
11:00 p.m. - Leave the theatre
12:15 a.m. - Go to bed after snarfing some food and unwinding just a little bit

I think the only thing that is keeping me awake right now is caffeine, and even now my body is developing an immunity to that! I mean, I'm back to drinking between 8 and 12 cups a day, and I'm still crashing pretty hard. So, this makes me feel very good about my decision to not do anything for a while after R&J closes. (I have even turned down two acting opportunities.)

Not surprisingly, the only thing I can really think of right now is relaxing. Or rather, the need to relax. So, I have started the countdown to my cruise in a few months. This, ladies and gentlemen, is the cruise vacation that K and I were supposed to take last September, no thanks to Rita. Yes, it's this cruise that I have been planning for 15 months now. I haven't talked about it because I was so unbelievably upset when I had to cancel it the first time that I just couldn't get myself to even acknowledge its existence for a while. Even now, it's still on the back burner of my mind. Again, I cannot even begin to tell you all that went into planning that thing, all without K's knowledge. GAH! Okay... now I'm just getting myself upset again. (There's nothing like being tired and cranky in the morning!)

That said, I'm just going to go back into my cave and try not to bite anyone who comes in. Gawd, I wish I could hibernate!

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