Please Leave Message After Bears

Mood: F*cking Tired!
Song: Miles Ahead – Miles Davis
Cups of Coffee: 5.5

Oh, god… Why am I so damn tired today? It’s not as if I went on some kind of a bender last night or anything like that. On the contrary: I knew I’d be getting up at the ass crack of dawn, so I went to bed at a very reasonable hour. (Although, I did wake up a couple of times, entirely soaked in sweat. Yeah. I know. Pleasant thought). Again, I can’t wait for the days of winter to be here. I swear that I’m leaving the windows open with fans a blowing ALL the time during the winter months in Seattle.

So, last night while K was out at call backs, I decided to sit down and do some more writing for the madrigal… Ugh! The creative process is really the only thing that’s keeping me going with this project. I haven’t even been able to create a rehearsal schedule yet because I’ve been so hung up on the lack of a performance space. I was supposed to have a meeting with the director of the school’s banquet hall yesterday about this whole thing which was postponed to this afternoon because she was out sick yesterday. A few minutes ago I received an e-mail from her again asking to bump the meeting back another hour. I am getting so sick of this. I wanted to feel a little better about this, so I started doing some research on other venues in the area. I just hate feeling like there isn’t any movement on anything. A lot is hinging on this one meeting. But looking at other venues just made me even more depressed. Already, without the cost of venue rental hanging over my head, I was getting ulcers as to how this thing is going to be paid for. Yeah, that’s another issue I’m trying to deal with.

You know, I’m not saying that my thesis project ought to be easy, but I honestly feel that I’m dealing with a lot more headaches than the average grad student. I mean, I sat back last year and watched as four graduate students floated through their thesi:

One “directed” a production at the county courthouse, (which the department secured) and really didn’t develop any of the characters, nor did he give any adequate staging.

Another directed a one-act piece of crap that I stage managed and watched every night not knowing whether to laugh or cry.

The other two were involved in a production that I acted in at a dinner theatre last year. One student directed while the other stage managed. (Yes, I love the fact that I stage manage and I get a pat on the back, yet this other student stage manages and gets his Masters!) All of the details of the dinner theatre project were arranged by the department so all the student director needed to do was simply direct.

Nice, eh? Perhaps since I am not one to sit on my ass and do things to “just get by”, people naturally expect more from me. This is actually what goes on at my job, (my boss has admitted it to me), and it’s frustrating there too. So, what are we teaching people to do? Be underachievers? Looks like it to me!

So, with my daily rant about my thesis project out of the way, onto some humor… I thought the link that the Nutcase provided was hilarious and had flashbacks of it when one of my student assistants called a student for me and got an answering machine with an outgoing message that said, “Thank you for calling. Please leave message after bears.”